Whew! I’m making it in under the wire to keep with my one post a week goal. There was only one week that I missed since I set this goal for myself and it was the week that I had the Stroke of Luck. I think that’s a fair enough reason to go dark for a week, don’t you? That being said, this post hardly counts as legit. I’m merely writing to give you a couple First You Must Begin updates.
First, I have set up an Instagram account specifically for FYMB. If you are on Instagram, I would love to have you follow me at FIRST_YOU_MUST_BEGIN.
On an entirely different note, I felt this urge to give you all an update on the status of my post from last week Who Do I Want to Be?. In that post, I set a total of five goals for myself: eat only one burger a week, stop yelling, read my scriptures daily, say my morning prayers, and cut my restaurant budget by 20% per week. I’m close to wrapping up week number two and this is my report. This is me keeping it real!
I have stuck with my one burger a week. I almost caved today out of convenience on the way home from CostCo. Costco took longer than expected and I wanted to keep my toddler awake on the way home, so I almost went through Drive-Thru to make life easier. Nay, nay. I held strong.
I need to get the swear jar and use pebbles in place of money, as I never have cash on hand. Each pebble will represent 25 cents. I’m thinking when the jar gets full, I’ll transfer the pebbles to cash and put it in my kids savings. Since I have yet to purchase a jar or pebbles, I really don’t know how I did. I do know though that I had to catch myself at least five times in the past 10 days.
Scripture study was hit or miss. Honestly, it was probably worse these past couple weeks than it has been in the past. Usually, I can at least count on family scripture study with my kids before school, and even that we were pretty lazy about these past few days. My eldest began taking uni-cycling classes before school twice a week and it’s messed with our morning routine a bit. I need to come up with a new plan, and I fear it involves me waking up earlier.
As for kneeling down for my morning prayers – WOW. Thursday of last week I was an absolute wreck. It’s worth noting that this day did not start with prayer. I can’t count how many times I screamed inwardly at every little thing in my life that did not flow smoothly. Those five times of yelling, that I mentioned above, may have very well all happened in that same Thursday. I was just a mess. The following morning on Friday, I rolled straight out of bed and onto my knees for my prayers. We spent that day traveling to Portland and we had a few hiccups in the day. Had it been the previous Thursday, I would have flipped my lid. However, on this Friday that began with prayer, I felt oddly at peace. I kept watching myself handle things calmly and thinking it was such a contrast from the day before. It wasn’t until the end of the day that it hit me. The biggest difference between the two days was how I started it. Starting my day off with humble prayer made such a difference for the better! Each day that I remembered to start with prayer had a similar outcome. I really felt more at peace on those days than I could have anticipated.
As for the restaurant budget, well, let’s see…um…well…yeah, I got nothing. BIG FAT FAIL. Last weekend we were in Portland so we ate every single meal out. This week was a touch better, but since I have yet to actually figure out what 20% less equates to, I can’t provide an honest answer on my success. Oops.
A couple reasons I wanted to offer an update is because I really was impressed by how much of an impact doing my morning prayers had on my daily life AND I wanted everyone to know that I am just trying the best I can. I am not a woman of answers. I am just a woman trying to find the best way that I can to live a positively purposeful life. Anything I suggest on this site is as much of a suggestion for myself as it is for anyone that stops by to read a bit. Usually the things that I set out to accomplish on this site prove fruitful. I hope the same proves right for you.
What it comes down in regards to these First You Must Begin updates is that I am doing what is stated in Ephesians 6:18 – “Praying always with all prayer and supplication in the Spirit, and watching thereunto with all perseverance and supplication….” I’m trying to make a difference in the world around me through this blog and by the actions I make in my daily life. I stumble. I fall. I pray. I persevere.